We had the ultrasound last Fri. Most people can't wait for their ultrasound because they want to find out the gender. We didn't want to know the gender but just wanted to be reassured that the baby is healthy. Although, I think it does cross most soon-to-be parents minds that something could be wrong, you don't really expect something might be wrong. So it was with us. At the end of the ultrasound, the tech said she was going to start her initial report and call the Dr. to see if he wanted her to take any more pictures. Okay, we are sure that's not normal, so we start to worry. She came back and said that there are two "soft" markers for a chromosomal abnormality (most often meaning Downs). There is a spot on the heart, common in a lot of normal babies. And the fluid on the kidneys is a little above normal. Again, not something to worry about, but the two together raises concern. I did not have the triple screen and at this point it's too late anyway. So, we wait for the Dr. to come take a look. And he sees the same two markers as well as maybe, possibly a "hole in the heart". The ventricular septum normally gets very thin as it approaches the valves. So, sometimes it is hard to see if it is really there are not. And he wasn't sure if it was there or not. If a baby has one marker, they usually don't say anything to the parents. But two, they do. But I don't know if they would have said anything about the ventricular septum if the other two markers weren't there and I also don't know if that will be considered a third marker, thus increasing the odds, if after the next ultrasound they determine there is a hole. So, we go in for another ultrasound next week. The fluid on the kidneys might change, they might be able to see more of the ventricular septum, but he says the spot on the heart will always be there. Other than keeping an eye on things via ultrasound, the only other thing we can do is an amnio, which runs the risk of miscarriage, 1/100. Which might not seem like bad odds, but when you are talking about losing a baby already this far along, it's a risk we aren't willing to take. We know there is no point to worrying. It might be nothing. It could be something. If it is, what does worry about it do? But we're still worried. Much of the research says that soft markers don't really mean much and just cause undue worry for the parents. The research also says that some of these markers can be seen better on thin women. Chuck considers me thin, I don't. And many of these markers seen during 2nd trimester ultrasounds correct themselves. It is statistically improbable that we would have a baby with Down Syndrome, but there is always the possibility for anyone. There are so many thought and emotions running thru my head, I don't even know where to begin. So, for now, I won't.
Here I am at 20 weeks. I am starting to tell my butt and legs are getting fatter and I really don't like that! My exercise volume has not changed and I don't think I am eating any more than normal, even though I should be able to eat more right? Oh, and don't worry, the comments about how big I am just keep coming.